I dont know whats wrong with me....please help?

i have always been used to being the blonde bombshel with a great tan, body, butt ,and legs, but im married now and have two gorgeous babies .but i lost my body, im losing weight slowly, i just cant help feeling lost....i know im a mom now and i love being a wife i just sometime well all the toime still wanna look like i used to and dress like i used to and turn heads. ....its so wrong to feel that way...i pray about it....i am in no way wanting to cheat on my husband...am i ever though gonna find a balance and be happy with who i am and forget who i was ....i love my family very much...its me i have a problem with?